Tuesday, December 17, 2002

My husband and I have been talking some more and the decision to seperate is still good. We both agree to it now. Things have calmed down, and I am almost looking forward to working out things on my own.

One specific conversation stayed in my mind. It happened yesterday. My husband told me that he could see himself with other women, living, and sharing a life with them, but that he couldn't see me living with another man. He didn't want me to. He looked into my face and told me how beautiful and desirable I was at that moment. (he mentioned that he had an erection..that sorta pissed me off) I told him that if he couldn't guarantee that he wouldn't cheat on me again, that we shouldn't be together. He had tears in his eyes, and he was frustrated, but he couldn't say it. Not even to lie to me.


I suggested that we go to counseling. I know I have been giving him a lot of chances, and I have been called stupid for staying with him, but I need to work on us a little more. I am only 20 and he is 24. I have to give us some hope. So, I will start looking into some marriage counseling programs.